big shot.

"i was a little girl, following you around

waiting til it was dark, before i made a sound

you're in the background, but i am too

maybe thats how i found you

lots of gasoline, lots of time with me

but not until we weren't face to face

so i could say what i wanted with a screen between

because, what if? so i wedged us, just in case

but everyday, sometimes every hour

i saw something like a red, neon sign

for me! but all it read to me was

i can't be yours, and you can't be mine

cause who does this happen to? definitely not me, does it happen to you?

so like that sign, i turn red and radiate

and even get coffee, come in early, and stay in late

i told you little things, with hopes even i didn't know

to create something big, bigger than us both

cause maybe if you believed, the way i believe

well, only just maybe

if only, i thought, i could go to the store and buy a bottle of you

well, maybe then, i could change my view

and this went on for longer than i thought

and you still don't know, how much i really bought

depths and debt, i still pay now!

depths and debt, your clear eyes made me blind somehow

i remember it now as black and white and smoky

tucked away in a drawer on top and to the right

with my biggest regret of rejecting you

you know, that one night

you asked me. no, told me. wait, showed me

but i was strong and resilliant

hoping to show you something true from within me

but you still beat it because

you are always brilliant

yeah, i know i choked

you didn't laugh, but somehow

i ended up the joke."