"i was a little girl, following you around
waiting til it was dark, before i made a sound
you're in the background, but i am too
maybe thats how i found you
lots of gasoline, lots of time with me
but not until we weren't face to face
so i could say what i wanted with a screen between
because, what if? so i wedged us, just in case
but everyday, sometimes every hour
i saw something like a red, neon sign
for me! but all it read to me was
i can't be yours, and you can't be mine
cause who does this happen to? definitely not me, does it happen to you?
so like that sign, i turn red and radiate
and even get coffee, come in early, and stay in late
i told you little things, with hopes even i didn't know
to create something big, bigger than us both
cause maybe if you believed, the way i believe
well, only just maybe
if only, i thought, i could go to the store and buy a bottle of you
well, maybe then, i could change my view
and this went on for longer than i thought
and you still don't know, how much i really bought
depths and debt, i still pay now!
depths and debt, your clear eyes made me blind somehow
i remember it now as black and white and smoky
tucked away in a drawer on top and to the right
with my biggest regret of rejecting you
you know, that one night
you asked me. no, told me. wait, showed me
but i was strong and resilliant
hoping to show you something true from within me
but you still beat it because
you are always brilliant
yeah, i know i choked
you didn't laugh, but somehow
i ended up the joke."
